There is a burnt orange dirt-gravel road that leads to my dorm on campus. The pebbles that make up the road are big enough to serve their purpose, but small enough to get into my open-toed shoes when i’m walking absent-mindedly. When they do, somehow, find their way through the spaces of my shoes, they sometimes become lodged in so tight and are so jagged that it is impossible to put my whole weight on that particular foot. I’ve developed an impressive sort of “walk-kick” that succeeds in getting the rock out without actually having to stop, bend down, take off the shoe, remove it, and put the shoe back on. I’m sure to standbyers it looks perfectly normal..
I think that i unconsciously to “walk-kick” Africa out of my heart and mind sometimes. Picking the jagged pebble out myself gives way for too many implications. But after being the places i’ve been, and seeing what i’ve seen, i think that to do nothing is negligence. and so is trying to find a ‘quick fix’ for everything wrong in the world.
i’ll be done with classes here in 1 week and home in 2. so right now, i’m asking, what do i do when i’m not in Africa anymore? (i think i can add that to a long list of questions for after graduation). i don’t know all of the answer(s) to that question, and probably won’t for a while. Who does? (not for me, per-say.. just in life generally =) It will definately be a bittersweet departure from East Africa. The bitter part is already missing the little faces at Cherub, and leaving the relationships and sweet work being done in NGO’s here. I think it’s safe to say that the sweet part is leaving the bland staple foods and handwashing laundry.
A couple days ago, some American students went caroling around campus in 90 degree heat, and it felt really odd. We made paper snowflakes and held them up as we sang. The most unique caroling experience thus far in my life.. Is it colder than normal? Any snow yet? I brought one hoodie and thin pants, so i’m going to freeze in Amsterdam and when i get to DC =) But i can’t wait for the cold weather and so many layers i can barely move. talk to me in a month and i might feel differently.